let see what we have here...?

(first couple texts were the typical "hello" "what are you doing?" "hows it going? what are you upto?" then we got to the good stuff..) 

 [Boy:] i was talking to a friend about relationships and women..and i realized that 
I enjoy being in a relationship but I dont have the patience for it...eventually
[Me:]Lol i know the feeling it can be a lonely world sometimes and its nice to know someone cares and is thinking about you..Lol i need to find someone too someone who brings out the best in me and makes me better..its hard.
[Boy:] but i want one eventually and when i care about someone i care with everything
[Me:]Relationships are hard ive never really had a real one they require to much effort and compromising and sacrifice which sucks but could also be so beautiful.. im the same way i woud love to give my all when the day comes but i dont like wasting time and until i meet someone whom proves and i know is worth it im not willing to settle...Even though i really would like someone in my life i know theres alot i need to fix about myself lol we gotta be fair we want the best we have to be the best
[Boy:] Your looking for more than me lol i just wanna find a woman i get along with and that accepts me for me no matter how messed up i am
[Me:] Lol what does that mean? Ha well were all messed up arent we?
[Boy:] what does what mean?????? i dont think im that messed up
[Me:] lol well i am
[Boy:] Your way to specific lol
[Me:] Lmao why do you say that?
[Boy:] It sounds like you have a list of qualities that a man should have for you to date them or be happy
[Me:] well we have to know what we want right haha or what we need i dont literally have a list not yet anyway lol :P im just looking for what i deserve is that to much lol
[Boy:] Lol its not to much but the particular you get and the more you start to shape your "perfect" man or ideal man the less chance you get at finding someone
[Me:] Well...... i do only need to find one :)
[Boy:] ..thats true but when you realize that "one" dude isnt real its gonna suck
[Me:].. lol that would suck but honestly if my kinda guy doesnt exist i rather be alone
[Boy:] Seriously???
[Me:] never been more serious lol
(then the subject changed and we talked about how hes been really busy and i told him its great but that he should get some rest )

when will the day come when i dont feel like this?

¹⁴We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. ¹⁵I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. ¹⁶And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. ¹⁷As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. ¹⁸I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature.^[c] For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out.¹⁹For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.


Romans 7:14-20

Dont Touch Me.

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huh???

- I cant fathom the feelings being stirred in my heart and in my soul.


No me quedan ganas de sentir....

QUEEEE?????

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